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The body desires the convulsion the mind denies. There is no letting go here though. This orgasm is a controlled, measured, calculated experience. I have masturbated in this way next to the sleeping bodies of all my serious, committed partners who came before my husband.

In some cases, as expected, it was because I wanted Naples time friend sex than they could give me. But this has not always been the story. Yes, I have an incredibly high sex drive, but even in relationships where I have great sex multiple times a week my nighttime stealth for self-pleasure has persisted. My college boyfriend, burgundy haired and tattooed, had evrning high sex drive typical of most nineteen-year-old males.

We fucked all the time, but even still, I wanted more, something only I could give me.

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He is confused now as he pulls me close to him, laughing nervously at my abrupt shift in disposition. I try to pull the sheet completely over my head, but he pulls it back down and covers my face with apologetic kisses.

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Though I had periods of promiscuity throughout my twenties, my biggest issue has always been with what I do alone. And then realizing that person is me. But my proclivity for solo pleasure has strong, stubborn roots. I lost my virginity to a water faucet when I was twelve years old. I have Adam Corolla and Dr. This technique is one of the many things I learned, but I had a whole other kind of education going on, which had long Married women looking for fun sat Blue Earth evening my head with other ideas — sex is something that happens between a man and woman Marred love each other; masturbation is a sin.

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I was out of control. Little did I know that describing my favorite porn scene would be the first of many future admissions that would help peel back, layer by layer, a long and exhausting history of self loathing.

It took evfning discipline and patience for us to expel it from our relationship altogether, though every now and then we slip up. Talking about my habits led me to examine them, which ultimately led to my desire for change. Holding a secret for too long is like being unable to take a full breath.

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Loojing shakes his head and takes me in his arms as I make another promise to try to leave llooking alone. When I visited a peep show on a recent work trip out of town, he seemed more amused than upset about the whole thing. Unfortunately, I have yet to be as generous.

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Not because I need his permission, his forgiveness or to offer him some act of contrition. But because I need him to see me.

To witness. The act of telling the truth, especially about something that makes us ache, is often the only absolution we need.